It’s Saturday!! This is probably the busiest Sat It’s Saturday!! This is probably the busiest Saturday we have had in a year. Outside projects this morning, soccer and then a small celebration for one of my favorite people’s 40th birthday. Is it just me or do you get super excited when you get to see your people in person now?  I feel like any little excursion gets me excited.
👗 Styling Tip 👗 One of my favorite ways to w 👗 Styling Tip 👗 One of my favorite ways to wear a spaghetti strap dress is with a graphic tee. You can wear it under your dress or on top and knotted on the hip. It not only allows you to wear a regular bra 🙌🏼 but it adds a layer making it more visually interesting. I popped a belt on with some bright flats and finished the look off with a hat. Spring time perfection. 
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I grabbed this dress from @shopimpressions. Tee is @target as well as the hat and belt. 
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#springfashion #springstyle #springlooks #stylingtips #stylingdresses #funwithfashion #summerstyle #bloggerstyle #bloggerswithcurves #plussizestyle
#OOTD 🤍🤍 Poor Justin. I’m like hey come ou #OOTD 🤍🤍 Poor Justin. I’m like hey come outside and take a picture of me in the yard before I leave. Luckily he’s always a good sport and the best #instahusband.
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This came in from @eloquii yesterday and I couldn’t resist the urge to wear it today. It’s two pieces so this white shirt dress is definitely going to get some use this summer as a coverup.  You can shop this and all my daily looks at @liketoknow.it by following me in the app and screenshotting this picture. Easiest shopping ever. 
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#eloquii #transitionalpieces #spring #springlooks #springfashion #ltk #ltkcurves #ltkfashion #ltkstyletip #ltkunder100 #louisianablogger #nolablogger
I was reading somewhere that people with anxiety t I was reading somewhere that people with anxiety tend to watch the same shows over and over again. The theory is because it is predictable it’s easier to watch and has a calming effect. Fast forward to me switching between Grey’s Anatomy, Schitt’s Creek and The New Girl when I’m stressed out. Do you do this too?? Tell me I’m not alone!
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Amazon Essentials are some of my go to knit pieces. They are comfortable, true to size and hold up well to a wash and wear lifestyle.  I’m rounding up a few of my favorites on @liketoknow.it. They have a jumpsuit that was my uniform last summer and it should be in your closet. 
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#amazonessentials #amazon #ltk #ltkfashion #ltkcurves #ltkstyletip #ltkunder50 #ltkstyle #budgetfriendlypieces #styleonabudget #bloggerswithcurves #plussizeblogger
Sale Alert 🚨 @target has dresses 20% off in the Sale Alert 🚨 @target has dresses 20% off in the circle app. Check out my @liketoknow.it for all my fun picks!! #target #targetstyle #targetsale #spring #springdresses #bloggerswithcurves #plussizeblogger
I feel like all of my posts are about the weather I feel like all of my posts are about the weather lately. But seriously. It’s still cold. They tell me it’s going to warm up this week but I’m worried it’s just fake spring. That groundhog said, I said six more weeks of winter. 
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Ok so I’m going to give you a tip. Grab a new winter coat now. They are on sale and you probably need a new one. God knows I did when Justin got me this window pane coat for Christmas.  Linking a few on my @liketoknow.it 
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#shop #shopping #shoppingtips #shoppingfun #winterweather #wintershopping #sales
Anyone else trying to use the last of their winter Anyone else trying to use the last of their winter content before March 1st?  Just me?? 
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It’s very cold and I have run out of cute things to wear while semi freezing. It’s just not worth it. My clothes are not made for wind and super cold temps. Is there a brand you love that makes warm clothes for the freezing days?  This southerner needs advice. 
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#winter #winterisstillhere #bloggerstyle #bloggerswithcurves #plussizestyle #plussizeblogger
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Adoption & Foster Care, At Home, Kids, Life, midlife · May 9, 2020

On Infertility and Mother’s Day

The first time I remember acknowledging how sad Mother’s Day had become for me was about two years before we started fostering. I had gone to Hallmark to pick up a gift and I started looking at these Willow figures. Out of nowhere this lump developed in my throat and I couldn’t breathe. I got out of the store as fast as I could. Why was I freaking out about a holiday that wasn’t even about me? And that is the moment it dawned on me. It should have been.

Our story

If you are unfamiliar with our story I wanted to update you. If you have heard it before you can scroll. The abridged version is this. Justin and I tried for years to conceive a baby. We tried medicine, surgery and doctors and in the end we decided to give up trying to conceive and adopt. Our infertility was always considered unexplained. We took one year to just make it be all about us. No trying to get pregnant. No talking about kids. Just fun and us. In 2011 we began the foster training process. In 2012 we were placed with our first baby mother’s Day weekend who was with us less than four days. In July that same year we were placed with our son Peyton who we would later adopt. In 2013 we were placed with two other short term foster placements. In July of the same year we were approached by an attorney about a private adoption which resulted in us adopting Paxton. Both adoptions were finalized in October of 2014. In March of 2015 Justin and I took a trip alone to California where I came back with a 6 week long stomach virus. Never having been pregnant before it took me that long to realize that it was a baby making me throw up daily and not a parasite. At the end of 2015 Porter rounded out the We Five Kings family as the baby and caboose.

Wishes

My relationship with Mother’s Day

Many of us grow about making our lives about others and it is a wonderful way to be. However when things get hard, rather than being able to lean into that sadness and taking time for ourselves, we feel forced to put on that happy face because it’s not about you. This becomes incredibly complicated for people struggling with infertility. This is a Mother’s Day post but lets be honest that infertility affects men too and there is even less room allowed for a man to grieve on Father’s Day.

Of all the holidays to navigate while dealing with infertility Mother’s Day is likely the hardest. Especially if you have a mother or grandmother that you want to celebrate it feels selfish to make it about your hurt. There are times to stand up and fight through pain and there are times when it is ok to allow yourself space.

1.It is ok to say no. I remember one time driving to a baby shower in tears. I was on the phone with a friend telling her how much I didn’t want to go because it was just another reminder of my infertility. She said, “then why are you going? You don’t have to go.” and I didn’t go. You know what, everything was fine too. I sent a gift and a note apologizing about my absence and life went on. The thing is that we guilt ourselves into doing things at times that are not good for our mental health. Especially when you are trying to conceive you should give yourself a break. The world isn’t going to end because you choose to take a moment for yourself to breath.

2. You can be sad. Again, it is ok to be sad. I don’t know why we need to be told this so many times…and you don’t need to explain why you are sad either. It does not make you weak or emotional or vulnerable or a Debbie downer because you are sad. One of the biggest lies we tell ourselves is that people only want to be friends with us when we are happy. But let me tell say this. I will take your broken and melancholy any day of the week before I want you to fake happiness for me. Expectations like that do not create real relationships.

3. Grief may not end after a baby arrives. However your infertility journey ends you may have residual grief. I have heard people say, “well she is pregnant now why is she still so worked up about everything?” Infertility is an emotional crisis, it is not missing out on the sweater that was on sale at Nordstrom. It is deep and it impacts every part of your life and it may not be something you just get over immediately. I see parts of my infertility grief peek out from hiding even now almost eight years later. It’s not something that I deal with daily or even monthly but every now and then when I am dealing with a certain emotion I am like, ok I need to acknowledge this because it’s a deep seeded emotion.

There are times that I wish I had the perfect words to tell you. I wish that I could say that I know for sure you are going to get your baby next year. I wish I could tell you that your story ends perfectly. I want to tell you exactly how to get pregnant and end your sadness. But I can’t do that and it is something that nags at my heart. I want to gather up all of your pain and burden and I want to carry it for you because trying to get pregnant while carrying that load of uncertainty is daunting.

I can tell you this. I know that people can do really hard things. I know that we are capable of living and thriving through sadness. I know that this will not be the end of your story. I know that there is hope and there is love and there is light at the end of the tunnel. Although I can’t tell you when and how it will end I can tell you that you can survive it and you will be ok.

I strive to keep this space neutral but I am a Christian and I want to end this post by sharing this verse with you…

Exodus 14:14 “The Lord will fight for you, you need only to be still.”

Remember to be still.

XO, Tiffany

In: Adoption & Foster Care, At Home, Kids, Life, midlife · Tagged: adoption and foster care, adoption awareness, family, foster care awareness, foster care questions, infertility, infertility awareness, infertility awareness month, intertile, learning to cope, learning to live with loss, love makes a family, mom, moms day, mother, mother's day, mothering

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  1. Kristin says

    May 10, 2020 at 2:43 am

    Tiffany… I’ve followed you for a year and have never known your story.
    God used your words to breathe so much truth into my emotions tonight. With the build up of tomorrow, on the heels of my sister telling me on Tuesday that’s she’s pregnant with her 3rd, while my husband and I have been trying for 3 years… I’ve been dreading tomorrow. Dreading seeing my family and sisters- who I dearly love, but don’t get my grief… and don’t ask about it either.
    Without unloading on you- I just wanted to say thank you- for being brave and vulnerable. For “seeing” those who are in a silent and lonely hurricane of a season. God is using you friend- and not just for good sale finds (which I am definitely a fan of lol).
    -Kristin

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    • wefivekings_8smygv says

      June 18, 2020 at 8:21 am

      I am so sorry I am just responding to this. I don’t know why I didn’t see it until now. Thank you for your words and sharing your story. It is such a complicated road to navigate. You are in my thoughts.

      Reply

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It’s Saturday!! This is probably the busiest Sat It’s Saturday!! This is probably the busiest Saturday we have had in a year. Outside projects this morning, soccer and then a small celebration for one of my favorite people’s 40th birthday. Is it just me or do you get super excited when you get to see your people in person now?  I feel like any little excursion gets me excited.
👗 Styling Tip 👗 One of my favorite ways to w 👗 Styling Tip 👗 One of my favorite ways to wear a spaghetti strap dress is with a graphic tee. You can wear it under your dress or on top and knotted on the hip. It not only allows you to wear a regular bra 🙌🏼 but it adds a layer making it more visually interesting. I popped a belt on with some bright flats and finished the look off with a hat. Spring time perfection. 
.
.
I grabbed this dress from @shopimpressions. Tee is @target as well as the hat and belt. 
.
.
.
.
.
#springfashion #springstyle #springlooks #stylingtips #stylingdresses #funwithfashion #summerstyle #bloggerstyle #bloggerswithcurves #plussizestyle
#OOTD 🤍🤍 Poor Justin. I’m like hey come ou #OOTD 🤍🤍 Poor Justin. I’m like hey come outside and take a picture of me in the yard before I leave. Luckily he’s always a good sport and the best #instahusband.
.
.
This came in from @eloquii yesterday and I couldn’t resist the urge to wear it today. It’s two pieces so this white shirt dress is definitely going to get some use this summer as a coverup.  You can shop this and all my daily looks at @liketoknow.it by following me in the app and screenshotting this picture. Easiest shopping ever. 
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.
.
.
#eloquii #transitionalpieces #spring #springlooks #springfashion #ltk #ltkcurves #ltkfashion #ltkstyletip #ltkunder100 #louisianablogger #nolablogger
I was reading somewhere that people with anxiety t I was reading somewhere that people with anxiety tend to watch the same shows over and over again. The theory is because it is predictable it’s easier to watch and has a calming effect. Fast forward to me switching between Grey’s Anatomy, Schitt’s Creek and The New Girl when I’m stressed out. Do you do this too?? Tell me I’m not alone!
.
.
Amazon Essentials are some of my go to knit pieces. They are comfortable, true to size and hold up well to a wash and wear lifestyle.  I’m rounding up a few of my favorites on @liketoknow.it. They have a jumpsuit that was my uniform last summer and it should be in your closet. 
.
.
.
.
#amazonessentials #amazon #ltk #ltkfashion #ltkcurves #ltkstyletip #ltkunder50 #ltkstyle #budgetfriendlypieces #styleonabudget #bloggerswithcurves #plussizeblogger
Sale Alert 🚨 @target has dresses 20% off in the Sale Alert 🚨 @target has dresses 20% off in the circle app. Check out my @liketoknow.it for all my fun picks!! #target #targetstyle #targetsale #spring #springdresses #bloggerswithcurves #plussizeblogger
I feel like all of my posts are about the weather I feel like all of my posts are about the weather lately. But seriously. It’s still cold. They tell me it’s going to warm up this week but I’m worried it’s just fake spring. That groundhog said, I said six more weeks of winter. 
.
.
Ok so I’m going to give you a tip. Grab a new winter coat now. They are on sale and you probably need a new one. God knows I did when Justin got me this window pane coat for Christmas.  Linking a few on my @liketoknow.it 
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#shop #shopping #shoppingtips #shoppingfun #winterweather #wintershopping #sales
Anyone else trying to use the last of their winter Anyone else trying to use the last of their winter content before March 1st?  Just me?? 
.
.
It’s very cold and I have run out of cute things to wear while semi freezing. It’s just not worth it. My clothes are not made for wind and super cold temps. Is there a brand you love that makes warm clothes for the freezing days?  This southerner needs advice. 
.
.
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.
#winter #winterisstillhere #bloggerstyle #bloggerswithcurves #plussizestyle #plussizeblogger
Today is National Random Acts of Kindness Day!! Te Today is National Random Acts of Kindness Day!! Tell us your favorite random act of kindness to do????
Everywhere... it’s just Tuesday 😔 The people Everywhere... it’s just Tuesday 😔 The people of New Orleans have done so much to make Mardi Gras feel special. While I 100% believe the spirit of Carnival lives in your heart I would be remiss not to say, this one hits a little different. We will spend our morning doing virtual school while wearing our 💜💚💛 and trying to stay warm. I’m disappointed we aren’t one the Avenue but not that we aren’t doing it in 20 degree weather.
It’s a virtual school, freezing rain, winter sto It’s a virtual school, freezing rain, winter storm day in Louisiana. Y’all.  I have so much less anxiety about school closures this year. I think 7 months of having the boys home and 4 months of virtual learning made me so much more relaxed.  It was still a lot of chaos this morning but I felt so much more prepared.
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Currently it’s sleeting and raining and add a little thunder and lightening. I’m wrapped up in my @westlondonbtq rainbow sweater. If you haven’t checked out their boutique go give them a visit on IG. Mariah has an eye for style and sophistication with a bold aesthetic. 
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